getting there ...

again with the no binging - teetered on the brink of it though. ate a lot but not a binge.

i've lost a couple of pounds, its hard to tell on non digital scales. they said around 110 i think. so thats down about 3-4 pounds (yeah it went up the first week of november instead of down, but hopefully will keep on going down)

i watched a documentary (dying to be anorexic) and this scientist person was giving this girl tips on calories. she said that at 300 calories your metabolism is so slow that fat loss hardly happens, in fact anything under 1000 does that. so its best to eat at least 1000 and exercise.

i don't know how many i've been eating lately, don't think i really want to know. as long as its not a binge. slowly slowly cutting down. it'll have been under 2000 for sure the last couple of days though. i will start counting again next week.

although my gran is coming to see kate with me (my eating disorder therapist). that might put a spanner in the works when she starts banging on about 3 meals and 3 snacks a day. i'll have to try and get away with fruit for snacks. and i cook my own meals so that'll be noodle free stir frys and soup for me thanks!

i need to stay away from this lush bread that my gran bought with seeds and raisins. i said a couple of weeks ago that i was giving up bread!! ryvitasryvitasryvitas!!!!

i will get there eventually.