I need a rant...

Here it goes:

I don't care anymore that you no longer like me and aren't speaking to me, because I no longer like you, and do not want to speak to you or for you to speak to me.

There are many reasons for this, the first one that encouraged these feelings was the fact that you stopped talking to me. I know to an onlooker to this situation that this must seem like a petty reason to not like someone, but it's not a petty reason if you take into consideration that you stopped liking me for no rational reason at all.

Okay, I admit it was bad of me to get disgracefuly drunk and forget to tell you when I was leaving for the party, but let's be honest, you're a big girl now and could have used those things called legs to walk a minute across the campus to go to the party (in our student union!). Or you could have used the amazing new technology called a phone to get in contact with me; it was obvious that I was too drunk to function, so you could have asked anyone else who was at the sesh what time they were leaving. Or are you now completely incapable of social interraction now that your brain has been turned into mush by "love", or should I say, insane obsession?

But okay, okay, maybe I was in the wrong there and I aplogise. But is it really grounds for such a cold shoulder? To turn away from your "best friend" whom with a couple of months ago you were planning on moving in with next year of uni? Is it reason enough to completely blank them for however many weeks, bordering on months now? I hope youre new "friends" are nice enough, but to be frank, it seems like you have all become friends because all of you have no other friends (maybe i'm just being a bitch, but then, so are you).

But like I said, I don't really care. You havent been the same person that you were for some time now - I would say ever since you got with him, but I don't really want to blame him completely. You're the one that has been so consumed with your obsession with him that you have abandonded your friends - it's not his fault.

To begin with, yes, I was upset that my "best" friend wasn't talking to me, but to be honest, I thought that it would blow over in a couple of days. I thought that you would be angry for a day or so, tell e why you were angry with me, then I could apologise and things would go back to the way that were. But after a couple of weeks I began to get bored. I began to get bored of wating for the day when you would let me aplogise and things would be okay. But you never even told me why you were angry with me - so how could I apologise when I didn't really know what I have done? It can't just be for that one occasion, and I had heard on the good old grapevine that it wasn't - only no one knew what the other "things" were that caused you to have an issue with me.

So it's been more than a month now, and i've had enough. You have taken it way too far and I don't want you to try and make it better - through taking it too far you have stretched our relationship way further than the point of return.

This cannot be fixed.