Was that the beginning?

I went shopping with my Mum yesterday - I had to buy some new leggings. All of my size 8(UK) jeans are too big for me. Even with a belt they are baggy everywhere else, and just don't look right. So leggings it is; and I was getting bored of my variations of plain black or wet look black.

So I got some grey ones and some blue ones. Size 6, because size 8 were too baggy and they don't sell size 4's.

As I was putting them away, I noticed a pair of jeans that I had bought at the very end of last year - size 8 from Primark. I remember them being a very tight fit, despite my old Primark size 8's fitting fine. I made excuses - "They're new, they need wearing in and stretching a bit. They're cheap - I expect Primark were cutting down on material or something!And it's Christmas - I'm bloated!"

Then I noticed my absolute favourite (and most expensive) jeans - size 8, high waisted, from Topshop, which I had bought just after Christmas. They are the only ones that look okay on me now - if they have been freshly washed so are shrunk a little, and with a belt done as tight as it would go. When I bought them they were a little snug too.

I tried to make similar excuses - but this time there was louder voice. "Stop making excuses! It's fat - you're just fat. Lose some weight."

I obeyed.

I am still obeying.